| First day of band today. It didn't suck as much as I thought it would. I don't mean the music or anything, but I could get through it without trying to strangle somebody or something. So I came home and popped in some despairay. I just got into them so I don't have a formed opinion. I also have a Kra CD and soon 7 Samurai Sessions will get here. I recieved Neo Visualizm days afterwards. People are telling me that I need to get more into American music again. I just downloaded a bunch of Chamillionaire, DHT and Linkin Park. A lot of these jrock artists are saying that they love Kurt Cobain, Marilyn Manson, Pantera, all of these bands that I am listening to. They say that it isn't about understanding the words, but understanding the story and the emotion. Its about rock and thats it. so why should I be ridiculed because I would rather listen to MUCC than Paramore? Yes I love both but I would rather watch MUCC live. Who cares if I prefer to watch Moon Child instead of Interview with a Vampire? There is not one American band that I can name every member of that band and give you facts on them. The reason is that I have never cared this much in my life about the people making the music instead of just the notes! Who is the bassist for Disturbed? I don't know. Who is the bassist for Dir En Grey? That would be Toshiya. How tall is Amy Lee of Evanescence? Who knows. How tall is Gackt? That would be five foot ten. Im not obsessed, i just look it up and I find it interesting. I can't really explain anything well. Go to IMF.com and watch the artist feeds. I can't make you but you can if you want. I love meeting people who are into it like me, but they are few in Pennsylvania. I have met one and their favorite band was Malice Mizer. One, they broke up years ago and two, they are usually thought of as...funny? Im not a big Malice Mizer fan, but I don't hate them. Their earlier years I like more. But that isn't the point. The point is that that was ONE person. If I said "Can you believe I was 3 hours away from seeing Yoshiki last year?" they would look at me weird. They don't know who Yoshiki is or what he had done for music. I find that kind of sad and I know I am coming off kind of condensending. I don't mean to but at the same time its making me so frustrated. I tried to play Clever Sleazoid for Andrea who will listen to The Faint or whatever, and she didn't like it because it wasn't in English. When I told her most of it was, she said it was because they were Japanese. So what? My favorite song is by the same band and it is called Bottom of Death Valley. I don't need to know what he is saying. Hell I can't understand the English because Kyo's English is terrible. It doesn't matter. I can read the translation once even and be able to understand it. I can sing most of the words of Jibun Kakumei and it has such a profound effect on me. I love that song not because of the words, but the entire package. It has given me perspective on life (and taught me how to talk to people who have so so english skills). Hyde, L'arc~En~Ciel, D'espairay, Gackt, Malice Mizer, S.K.I.N., Miyavi, X Japan, Hide, Luna Sea, Kagrra, Kra, The GazettE, Dir En Grey, MUCC, Alice Nine, AAA, Antique Cafe, Due the Quartz, 12012, Phantasmagoria any of these bands I would recommend to anybody because they are amazing. This is just a small portion and in fact my most listened to bands. I don't know why I love to write about them, watch them perform, listen to their music. I even was bored one day so I sat and watched PVs while figuring out the chords on the guitar. That is my idea of fun but it is so frustrating when people just shrug them off thinking...oh...Japanese. Whatever. People think of Inuyasha, Hello Kitty, and that stuff when they think about Japan and pokemon also jumps to mind. I hate that line of thinking. I hate people who will only listen to British music because it makes them feel superior. This music doesn't make me feel superior, I just have more fun than most people while listening to it. I just wish I could show more people who much fun it is. I don't watch anime anymore. To tell you the truth, it gets on my nerve. I first realized this while watching a panel with Vic Mignogna. i worship this man. He is one of my idols and people during the panel people were asking him to scream fanservice and to sing. I wanted to hear questions about voice acting and him. They were also screaming through everything that he said. How can people be so hyper and out of control where they won't even listen to their idol speak? People say that American fans are obnoxious at concerts and I believe this. If you scream straight through a concert, why go? I love at one live, an artist screamed back at one really obnoxious girl (in English) "shut up bitch. i wasn't talking to you". respect. Aretha Franklin said it very well. Maybe passion is the difference. I need passion in my life. I deal with corruption and betrayal on a daily basis in so many places. Its nice to just look on a stage and see pure honesty right there. Nothing to hide and nothing to give. There is no veil and nobody tries to pretend there is. In America, artists are given the impression that they are godlike and better than their fans. To me, most japanese artists come off as more humble. I say most so don't hit me with anything. Tee hee I do have one person in mind who is said that he "loves himself too much to find real love". I am not going to say who. See what I mean? i can go for hours because its something I love to look up, read about, and just enjoy. Not eliteism either. A girl once said "I find beauty in the style" when interviewed in Japan for a concert. That is completely unrelated and really doesn't belong here. It interested me. Why do people dress in black., morbid faashions in America? to gain attention and to prove that they are emo enough, or rebellious enough, indie enough, etc. "I find beauty in the style" is such a perfect explanation for "why do you dess like that"? When I was into gothic lolita and dressing like that, I couldn't give you a reason and I was not happy. I didn't have a reason like that. I find beauty in the style...its perfect. Im sorry I took up so much to your time. I just spent most of last night and this morning thinking about these things and I didn't write them down. So a lot was lost in translation but at the same time more things were found. I feel peace with myself and I may be able to reveal my plan. yes I do have a plan, yes it is in motion and yes, it is a secret. Nobody knows about it. So who knows what my moves actually mean. Do I have a secret agenda? Probably not...but you never know. Keeps you on your toes. I guess I have nothing left in me to give. Im feeling pretty empty and prettycontempt with what I have tried to portray. if by some miracle I got through to you...please give me a ring and I can burn you some music or give you some links. I would love to have somebody on my side. |
